These are the temptations that come in the middle of the
night when you are ‘open’. They come when masturbating and or sexually high.
They come when you worship. They come when you least expect it. They are
temptations that you would have normally never even thought about.. You know
the ones. No I didn’t think of that. That is awful. That is disgusting. Oh no!
They are the temptations that are a bit further down the
road to Hell than where you are at. But make no mistake they will keep on
returning.. They can be to do with morals or taboos which had been dealt with
in early child hood-now to be re opened and considered within your Satanism.
They may be to do with sexual orientation, societies norms,
how you dress, how you treat your body, what you do with your body, what you do
with your mind, drugs, in fact anything.
Early on in worship I had this temptation, idea or need to
stick pins in my biceps and pour hot wax on my body etc I thought no way this
will be painful. But the temptations did not go away. It was in some way to overcome fear and
physical pain. But on it went. When I did-No pain –Just ecstasy!-Weird. Perhaps
it was a test. I also had a temptation
to drink my urine. I thought “oh no” this is insane. and disgusting. Eventually
I did. To me it is pure nectar. Pure me. There have been many others.
It seems if you are gay and a Satanist you get a massive sexual
drive which becomes uncontrollable. You want more. You cannot get enough. It
seems most eventually have an obsession to go bare back even with the risks.
The massive pleasure outweighs the potential pain.
Down this path parts of the “original “animal brain are
activated destroying modern social rules. Many being the moral and taboo social
codes. It is an unending realization as outer lays of social crap are peeled
away. Some times easy and quick, other times difficult. Those difficult ones when overcome are when
you make giant leaps forward.
In some way you must draw a line down the middle of your thoughts.
To the right you have the old thinking, Nice and comfortable. Now on the other
side you have all the “Oh no” thoughts. You must cut yourself off from making
an opinion about these. No judgment. No opinion. No right or wrong. They must
not be tangled up with these”Oh no” thoughts. The thought must just be
thoughts. Then action. You see chocolate. I want. I take. I feel horny. I fuck
or masturbate. Maybe on the bus –well perhaps not! There must be no considered
opinion. Definitely no judgment on what others or how society might view you
–theirs is an irrelevant view. You then start to have Satanic mind. Your
thought processes then flow without any regard for this right or wrong, moral judgment
or taboo crap. You will be a free Satanic spirit. A free thinker. You will walk
with Demons. You will feel .You will fully experience.
Look at these “oh no “temptations as service to Him. You
definitely don’t have to like them initially. You may not want to do them. But
you must consider them if you want to serve Him. Serve Satan and He will serves
you. It will give you Power. Eventually you will want it .Eventually you will
crave it. Sometimes you have to do things you may initially hate. Satan will
drive you, be under no illusion in what ever way He thinks necessary. A fully enlightened
Satanist has no problem with this. When temptations come he reacts. No questions,
no consideration.. He then becomes the personification of Satan in the human
form on this earth. Hail'