Satanic Musings 3

After being a Satanist for over 16 years thought one should look at where one had traveled down this path. I have realized I probably always was a Satanist from day one and there were many times when Satan was in some way calling me.
At a young age and in my teens I had some interesting sexual experiences. Then some massive family troubles. Which in a way changed my view completely on people and society.  But still stupidly tried to conform. That was a complete balls up, absolutely crazy thing to do looking back .But indoctrination is hard to break.
Then looked into other religions. Yoga, hinduism, buddism, tantra, paganism. Eventually Satan called. Home at last.Last thing I expected to happen.
Satan of course changed my thinking. Put it all on its head. New ideas started to flow. Luckily I had been into main stream paganism for quite a few years so found the transition fairly easy.
Set up an altar and worship my new Master. and invoked Demons. 
Satan brought many new thoughts into my head. Had powerful thoughts from Demons as well, which amazed me. I had experienced the power of mantra and had experienced some weird mind/body experiences while studying Hinduism. So all of this was not new to me.
Lust increased and was used in worship. This has become an ongoing development.
Then came the idea to accept pain to show ones devotion. First it was hot wax on the chest( Not too hard looking back) Then sticking pins in my biceps. This aspect is still developing in me.In fact this aspect in religious culture was carried out by Native Americans.
Then came the idea to get cemetery earth and in worship i would  rub it over my body. It is in a way a gives off powerful vibe to aid one.
There were many other interesting developments
I took a Demonic name. A two years process. The Demon chose me. 
I set up a tumblr blog and people started to contact me for advice. Many seemed extremely scared of their initial contact with Satanism.
Here came the interest in teaching and sharing my knowledge which has become a massive driving force. In fact the last thing I expected. I have been amazed after bringing  or helping people on this path how fast some have developed.
I then set up a group who do worship, invoke demons and meditation. Energy in the group is powerful
Further forward wondering whether to start a major course like setting up Satanism 101
Taking on men as Acolytes for training 
Satanism expands your mind. I wonder at times whether the so called ideas from Satan are not in fact your deep down desires. Now opened up by Satan.Possibly going further back into the deep recesses of the brain. Accessing origional ideas. Back to your original ancestors, back to your original animal thoughts, your lizard thoughts. After all we are just in some way a collection of all past life forms.
I have become in some way Satan's servant.I have invoked Satan into my mind .into my body and into my cock.Satan tells me bring them too Him.If men ask I inform and advise.I can only speak from experience. It is a never ending on going process
How to go forward. More writing -more teaching-More group work
I have not as yet used by body in a way that I believe Satan wants of me This for me may materialize but as yet it  is still in the thought process. In a way it is keeping your body neutral . As a vehicle for Satan  To use your body in order to bring men to HIM. It is something for the future as I develop. One has to remember that once you accept HIM. Your mind , body and cock become a beacon for others -like bees around a honey pot. And one must give of your Satanic energy, your Satanic essence your Satanic seed.  .
My muscles are being developed for Him. Another Satanic request . He wants me to develop like the Beast.  I walk with Satan.You will too.Hail Satan