Guilt & Shame

Guilt and shame are two of the biggest bastards on the way to growth. It is  a left over from early indoctrinations. Much from religious crap. It can be how you see society's interpretation of what you are doing or how they might react to it. It is the old maxim that has been driven into you since birth -you must conform to society's norms. There is fear you will be an outcast. Shunned by main stream society. It can be one of the hardest indoctrination's and feelings to get rid of. In can take years and for some a lifetime.But ask yourself why. What is this guilt -what is this shame. It is in some way the clash in your mind between the new Satanic framework that is arising which is at variance with the old original indoctrinations of main stream societies norms. It will be something one has to go through in order to grow into the "new " person that you want to be. The person who now walks down the never ending path to Hell. Once broken your strength increases. One has to grab this condition by the scruff of the neck and ask yourself is it really worth going through this pain. What for- it is your life, your body, your mind, your cock. Your have renounced the other crap way of acting in life. Why should this negative feeling linger on.. One should live the new live with pleasure. What are society, your family members, your friends going to say. Look at yourself -are any of them that important. They are the past. Satanism is the future. It is for you to deal with the the here and now. It is all that matters. It is all consuming for you. What matters now is only your path to Hell. Once you genuinely give yourself to HIM the ideas and methods of handling this problem come into focus. With HIS guidance and communication with others there will be change.As you go further down the path Satan will help you destroy the guilt little by little. Finding you do not need to conform to "their"rules. Eventually you may find you get a thrill by breaking away from the fold. You realize you must think for yourself. Re consider everything you have been taught and re assess it within the framework of your new Satanic life style. Time is all that is needed.

Taboos

Taboos-Satan will confront these eventually. There is no getting away from it. It may be later than sooner but you will be confronted. You may find in worship Satan suggests something –one of the taboos and says break it. It depends on the taboo what your reaction may be. You may be horrified. You have probably never ever considered this. Fuck wish this thought would go away. But I can assure you once started it will not. It will start to come up every so often. It may go on for months or maybe years until there is some outcome. The taboo was pushed into the dark recesses of the mind years ago. The rules were indoctrinated into you.  But Satan has drawn it out to be re looked at re assessed. So that now you will consider it in a total different way. Satan has shown you total freedom-total free will to act in the way you consider relevant-the Satanic way-your new life style. Not controlled, nor indoctrinated by society and or other people’s life styles. You have to consider –shall you break this taboo. Is it something you want to do? Perhaps it does not interest you. But if Satan has drawn it up out of your deep mind then there is probably some interest and or hidden reasons.. Maybe you will find that by doing this you will feel you are more in tune with your Satanic lifestyle and that you will have grown down this path. When breaking of taboos come up in the mind you have probably gone quite far down the path to Hell. It has only happened after much earlier progress has been made in other spheres. You may find after many weeks, months or could be years that you suddenly find you are re considering it. That you may feel that this is what Satan wants of you. That maybe this is to be done to move further down the path. It will probably give you an erotic high thinking about it. But still you may have doubts. Still you may hold back. The indoctrination surrounding taboos if very very powerful. To break a taboo can be too much of a life changing experience to even consider. It may be one of your fundamental rules by which you judge yourself. Never to be considered,  never to be broken. You wonder how you are going to handle this after the event. Would you be applaud or disgusted with yourself. Maybe you will have to re assess your rules. Satan will turn these upside down. You must realize on this path you will be confronted to move forward. If you do this it will please Satan –you will probably receive many boons. You may find that Satan slowly changes your attitude so that you see this in a totally new light. Over time the disgust, guilt, shame may start to go –Satan may start to change the mind set that has held one back.  Satan will destroy these over time so they no longer exist. You then act in braking the taboo in a total new Satanic way. It will be if you like Satanic enlightenment. It will in some way be unbelievable for you to consider it in a completely new light, free from early childhood rules. You will be free to go right into the heart of the taboo –break it with no regrets and come out the other side a more complete Satanist, Very much more powerful. More complete in yourself on the path you have chosen.

Evil & Depraved

What is “good” what is “evil”. It is all relative to the society in which you live or to the rules by which you live.

One's mind is like a computer. You are programmed from an early age to think according to the rules of the main stream society in which you live. You are indoctrinated with what is evil and what is good within the framework that society’s traditions. Within western culture this is dictated to by xians. Evil is described as wicked, bad wrong, immoral, sinful, foul, vile, dishonorable, corrupt, etc. Depraved is described as corrupt, perverted, deviant, degenerate, debased, debauched, licentious, indecent, sordid etc.

This is only a way within xian and western social principles of defining ones orientation. As a Satanist this is completely reversed. When as a Satanist one does something within that framework that is considered evil or depraved –one should considered it good. This is the correct way of understanding what you are doing within the Satanic framework. One must completely re orientate ones thinking.

Evil, wicked, perverted, deviant, etc. is just a way of interpreting what one is doing within a society orientated within xian traditions. There are and have been many others. What is evil, debased, perverted to one person in this society may not have been in another society. Within the Aghori sect in India it is acceptable to eat human flesh, eat faeces, drink urine, have sex over and with dead bodies etc.  It is all relative to how you were indoctrinated and now how your mind has been opened up as a Satanist. As a Satanist one must see the old evil as good and what one saw as good as evil. What was considered the correct and ‘normal” way of interpreting your existence within society must be considered evil now. Masturbation is good. Nudity is good. Adultery is good. Homosexuality is natural. Bisexuality is natural. Wives who are whores are not evil. Taboos are evil. For a Satanist evil is that which destroys your natural way

As a Satanist one must completely destroy any concept of earlier indoctrination's of evil and depravity.  For a Satanist Evil it that which will destroy any thoughts, concepts etc. which before within the western tradition you would of considered as such. Evil is stopping development to walk with Satan down the path of darkness. 

Satanic Freedom

Freedom -what does that mean. There is total freedom in Satanism, but how do you apply it? Do you need to “control” it in some way or do you give it free rein. Doing whatever comes to mind without any regard for the outcome. What is this freedom that you have acquired? With other religions and doctrines there is always control. The mind would say do this –do that. But control would come in. You must not do this. You must change that thinking. That is bad. When this happened it affected your mind, affected your body. It made you feel you were worthless. You were only allowed to get a hard on and fuck within “their” accepted framework!! Our open thought processes were destroyed. Pushed down. Penis crushed. Self crushed. You became a living corpse. “Dead man walking”. A slave.

Satan has opened you up to the idea of freedom. Freedom is defined as “the power or right to act, speak, or think as one wants without hindrance or restraint”. But is this in fact what He means. We may interpret it as such. We get all these new ideas. New feelings. All “controls” are gone. But Satan wants one to develop every skill and talent that one has. He wants you to become individually everything you can be on this earth. These are what and why He has opened up your mind to this idea we call “freedom”.

There is another development to freedom, which can be self-indulgent, careless and uncontrolled. These actions and feelings don’t necessarily lead to any development. Many Satanists often misapply their feelings. Without realisation and awareness self indulgence is all that is left. This has no potential for growth or development. One will stay at that level.

Without looking into the self or finding answers in worship one can find that one stays at a very basic level along this path of darkness and never reach the true heights that Satan required of you. It should be thought through that there is a big difference between the legitimate and illegitimate application of our fetishes and interests, each being critical to our real lives.

As Satanists one must think hard about what one is doing and whether it is relevant along this dark path and whether it will increase your development so that you reach your full Satanic potential. Satan knows what He wants of you. Be aware of that.

Secret Life

Whether to expose yourself. Show people who you are. Show who you are on the net.The ideal is probably to be completly open.Show that you are a Satanic Homosexual. But even exposing yourself as a Gay can be tricky. Your position at work could be affected. Your social position could be affected. Loose friends gain others. Family could reject you. Satanism as well could cause more problems. Luckily for me I work on my own and do contract work. But my clients don't know I'm gay nor a Satanist. But I can if I want take days off, sometimes no work so I can do whatever I like. If you work in a large organisation it will be very different.As I work from home I can work naked or wear tank tops and I never wear underpants. I now shave my head.
There is a very strong desire to to expose myself. Give out your full name contact details. Some of my immediate family know. They think I'm nuts. When others were told one got some very strange looks. But looking back at least one was not "in fear" -Hiding in the closet. The more who possibly come out as Satanists maybe the better. I have also found when I tell other people their eyes open wide! As if I am going to put a spell on them. Idiots.
We are supposedly powerful Satanic men it seems ridiculous that we have to hide away. Mind you on the other hand it maybe a good thing. We can work on those xians in secret. Doing all manner of manipulations without them being aware of it. But as you go further down the path it gets more easy and less of a problem to expose more of yourself to the world and society.

Going Down the Path

As you go down this path things get more erotic. You were highly sexed before. Now it has been increased. Satan and the Demons will tempt you night and day with all soughts of new methods of enjoyment probably never considered before. You may find initialy this can surprise and or could horrify you. The levels of what society considers depravity are endless. This is all acceptable to Him. In fact He and the Demons get as much enjoyment out of one's sexual exploits as you. In fact many Demons like to get into your mind and try and control your antics for there pleasure. One may in early stages still have some ego strength and indoctrinations that will in some way override and may stop or mitigate these new sexual thoughts, so that they may be in your mind but not acted on. The temptation is there but you in some way still control it with your "old" thinking process. But the temptation may barrage you night and day. It will get stronger and stronger in time. You feel in some way you are going insane. Your mind is being completely turned on its head.You want it but you see the "risks" are high. Before you were careful. You used protection. Maybe occasionally going bareback. Now that is all being thrown out the window. You may have been a top now you want to be a bottom. Maybe Satan wants your ass as the cup for toxic Satanic seeds of men. As a bottom accepting all Toxic Satanic Seeds will make you very powerful. As a top you have unlimited Satanic sexual energy which must be released to empower others. Maybe you can manipulate it. Get the massive new sexual exhilaration without the risk. Maybe by more worship and invoking you can still get your sexual highs that Satan wants you to enjoy. It is in some way like walking a tightrope. One must play with this to come to an acceptable risk formula. If you go the whole way you may find you burn yourself out very very quickly. Satan may not want that. Prehaps He wants to show you what a sexualy pwerful being you are. If you have the mind control maybe this can be used for other purposes within the Satanic realm. Its up to you . Its your choice.

50/50

When I first came to Satan I was meditating one day. Looking at my thoughts. Suddenly a red figure appeared. Naked with horns and a tail. I felt the thoughts were coming from outside myself. Satan beckoned to me to suck His cock. Then He turned around and beckoned me to kiss His left buttock. Then He turned around and sucked my cock. All very erotic. Then He was gone. After many thoughts about it and discussions with another Satanist, the meaning was interpreted as you give to Satan and in return He gives to you. It is a two way process. He wants you to grow to be like Him. As you in some way give to Him He reciprocates. To grow into what was originally intended when you were born . Before the xians got to you. Before they indoctrinated you with all their crap. So that all your natural and immense power was drained by them. To be used for controlling purposes. 

Satanism is a 50/50 thing. It is a two way flowing process. You do not and it has never been intended that you grovel in the dirt before Him. That you "die " for Him. What fucking nonsense, that is all for the xians to do. If as a "Satanist' you still think that way you have lost the plot. 

You have to "serve " , give or present to Him in some way. Give blood. worship etc etc etc Give Him what you feel He wants of you or feel He in some way has communicated to you. But always remember it is a two way process in which He in return will "give" to you. He will have mapped out a development process for you to move forward along the path to His Satanic enlightenment. This is basically removing all the indoctrination of you past life. To be completely reprogrammed so that you become the Satanic person you were meant to be. Not a subservient wimp that Western society has impregnated into your skull since birth. Satan wants you to be as far as you can be similar to the Gods and the Demons with all the powers that they have. Do not on your Satanic path take the xian programming with you. You are not a Servant of Satan. You meet Him on equal terms.